Lack Of

Recently I have learnt a little something about myself that has really started to annoy me! I have like zero motivation or commitment. I will start something and not finish, and its starting to make me feel down. For a good example, this blog. 

I'm so inconsistent with it! I'll have a small bout of inspiration/aka prioritizing time, and then I'll just stop. And I don't know why, Laziness maybe? Another example is my health and wellbeing. I think to myself 'come on beth, lets do some exercise and eat right from now on, future Bethany will thank you for it'. But alas that little pep talk will only spur me on for, I don't know, a few days. Then I'll be sat there chocolate in hand and then get very angry with myself later.

 It's the same with wanting to quit sugar (thanks Sarah Wilson for inspiring me). I know how bad it is for me yet I lack the motivation to continue. 

I know this post sounds drab and a teeny bit negative but I needed to vent. Maybe writing this out will help me realize that i need to set goals and pray more instead of trying to do things on my own.

I'm writing it to somehow express to everyone the questions, WHY are we so darn hard on ourselves?

we are are worst critics of course. WHAT can I do to end this helpless self destructive cycle? Please send help because it's leaving me defeated and feeling all annoyed.